Lilith · A Pilgrim's Reading · Chapter 35 of 47

XXXV. The Little Ones in Bulika

Innocence entering the fortress of fear

At first light Vane leads his strange army — the Little Ones on bears and deer and elephants, with birds and butterflies for an honor guard — across the plain and through the sounding archway into Bulika, the city of Lilith. The children, who have never known fear in all their “long little lives,” meet it for the first time at the sight of “nests of stone”; the grown inhabitants prove to be the very “bad giants” the children might have become — cruel, joyless, and so unmotherly that Lona despairs of finding a single mother among them. Boys are snatched and thrown into pits; one little captive is murdered; the white leopardess hunts through the lanes, good after all, carrying a rescued child gently on her back. And then Lona, who came to deliver this people, says the unbearable thing: “This people is not worth delivering” — the moment a child of mercy looks on hardened wickedness and is tempted to write it off as beyond saving.

The Point of Reference

Before we weigh a single judgment in this chapter — whether a city is “worth delivering,” whether a face is mother enough, whether the leopardess is good or deadly — we fix the reference point the whole series stands on. Reason and worth are not measured from the shifting opinions of those who do the measuring; they are measured against the One who does not shift. The God who names Himself I AM is the unchanging ground of every true valuation. Lona’s verdict on Bulika changes with her weariness; God’s verdict on a people does not bend with the weather of His mercy. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever, and it is His constancy — not our exhaustion — that decides whether anyone is “worth” rescue.

Malachi 3:6 · LXX

Διότι ἐγὼ κύριος ὁ θεὸς ὑμῶν καὶ οὐκ ἠλλοίωμαι· καὶ ὑμεῖς, οἱ υἱοὶ Ἰακώβ, οὐκ ἀπέχεσθε.

Malachi 3:6 · ESV

For I the LORD do not change; therefore you, O children of Jacob, are not consumed.

Author & Audience · Malachi

The prophet Malachi (“my messenger”), writing to the restored post-exilic community in Judah, c. 430 BC — a people grown cynical, their priests careless, asking whether it pays to serve God at all. To that worn-down congregation God says the thing that holds the whole book up: I do not change. Their survival rests not on their worthiness but on His constancy — the very ground Lona forgets when she pronounces Bulika beyond help.

The Scripture: “Not Worth Delivering”

Lona’s sentence over Bulika — spoken in grief, not malice — is exactly the verdict Scripture overturns at its center. The cross is God’s answer to a world that was, by every honest reckoning, “not worth delivering.” He delivered it anyway, not because it deserved rescue but because He is love.

Romans 5:6–8 · Greek

6Ἔτι γὰρ Χριστὸς ὄντων ἡμῶν ἀσθενῶν ἔτι κατὰ καιρὸν ὑπὲρ ἀσεβῶν ἀπέθανεν. 8συνίστησιν δὲ τὴν ἑαυτοῦ ἀγάπην εἰς ἡμᾶς ὁ θεὸς, ὅτι ἔτι ἁμαρτωλῶν ὄντων ἡμῶν Χριστὸς ὑπὲρ ἡμῶν ἀπέθανεν.

Romans 5:6–8 · ESV

6For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. 8But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Author & Audience · Romans

Paul, writing from Corinth c. AD 57 to the church at Rome — a congregation he had not yet met — to lay out the gospel in full. His argument here cuts straight against Lona’s despair: God did not wait for the ungodly to become worth saving. He acted “while we were still sinners,” making worthiness the result of His love, never its precondition.

Ezekiel 33:11 · LXX

Ζῶ ἐγώ, λέγει κύριος, οὐ βούλομαι τὸν θάνατον τοῦ ἀσεβοῦς ὡς ἀποστρέψαι τὸν ἀσεβῆ ἀπὸ τῆς ὁδοῦ αὐτοῦ καὶ ζῆν αὐτόν.

Ezekiel 33:11 · ESV

As I live, declares the Lord GOD, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from his way and live; turn back, turn back from your evil ways, for why will you die?

Author & Audience · Ezekiel

The priest-prophet Ezekiel, ministering among the Judean exiles by the river Chebar in Babylon, c. 587 BC, around the fall of Jerusalem. Set as a watchman over a hardened and condemned people, he is given God’s own heart toward them: not pleasure in their death but a longing for their turning. Bulika is a city under exactly such a watchman — and the watchman is tempted to give up on it.

ἀσεβές asebes — ungodly, irreverent, the one who has turned from God

The same word stands over Bulika’s giants and over us. In Romans 5:6 Christ dies “for the asebōn”; in Ezekiel 33:11 God takes no pleasure in the death of the asebous. The grammar of grace runs one direction only: the ungodly are precisely the ones the gospel is for. To call a sinner “not worth delivering” is to mistake the diagnosis for the verdict.

Four Lenses on “The Little Ones in Bulika”
Scientific

Fear, learned for the first time

The Little Ones have lived “long little lives” without fear; the walls of Bulika teach it in an instant — “for the first time in their lives… they knew fear.” That is true to how the brain works. Fear is not pure instinct alone; the amygdala learns threat by association, and a single overwhelming encounter can imprint a dread that was never there before. The “nests of stone” do real work on real nervous systems.

Yet notice what blunts the fear: trust. The children “went on bravely, for they had confidence in Lona.” Modern stress research says the same — a trusted, regulated presence dampens the threat response in those nearby. Courage in this chapter is not the absence of the alarm but a relationship strong enough to walk through it.

Philosophical

Who has standing to declare a people worthless?

“This people is not worth delivering,” Lona says, surveying the unmotherly faces. It is a judgment of worth — and worth is the deepest question in ethics. If value is something we assign, then Lona may revoke it, and Bulika is indeed disposable. If value is something a being has, conferred by its Maker, then no weariness of ours can cancel it.

The chapter itself argues against Lona. The one boy who is killed she is consoled to lose only because death “saved him” from becoming a bad giant — which quietly concedes that even the giants were once salvageable little ones. Worth was not absent in Bulika; it was buried, papered over like a masked door, but not destroyed.

Metaphysical

The leopardess who is good after all

The white leopardess bursts down the lane, and the children waver — they remember her as a thing of “daily terror.” Yet she rolls aside rather than crush little Odu, carries the rescued boy gently “across her back,” and seizes the murderer “like a cat with a great rat.” The same fierce creature is both dreadful and a deliverer. Appearance and being do not coincide.

This is MacDonald’s recurring metaphysics: a power that looks like an enemy may be mercy in another form — as Mara’s House of Bitterness wounds in order to heal. The deepest realities cannot be read off the surface. What terrifies the natural eye may be exactly the thing sent to save you.

Scriptural

A city that drives out its children

Bulika is built on fear and greed, and its sin shows in its treatment of the little: boys snatched, thrown into pits, one murdered outright. Scripture knows this city. “Whoever causes one of these little ones… to sin, it would be better for him to have a great millstone fastened round his neck” (Matt 18:6). The measure of a people is what it does with its children.

And the answer to Bulika is not Lona’s “leave the horrible place,” but the King who said “Let the children come to me.” The Little Ones ride into the city precisely to find mothers in it. Mission does not abandon the hardened; it walks the army of innocents through the sounding archway and stays.

The Laws of Classical Logic
First, the point of reference. The laws below are not our preferences; they hold because being is what it is, and being is what it is because its Author does not change (Malachi 3:6). We anchor them to the unchanging I AM (Exodus 3:14), the ground of identity itself. Only on that fixed standard can we judge Lona’s verdict over Bulika — and find it wanting.
1 · The Law of Identity A is A — a thing is what it is.

The white leopardess is one creature, not two. She does not become a different beast when she turns out to be good; she was good while she still looked deadly. Little Odu trusts that identity — “he had heard me speak of the goodness of the white leopardess” — and runs to meet her. Faith is often simply holding fast to what a thing truly is when its surface frightens us.

2 · The Law of Non-Contradiction Not both A and not-A, in the same respect, at the same time.

Vane sees his own contradiction and names it: he leads “an army of innocents” toward a kingdom of obedience, yet “had not myself learned to obey… I was myself but a slave.” One cannot be at once the free king and the bound rebel in the same respect. The chapter exposes the lie a divided heart tells itself — that it may command what it will not first submit to.

3 · The Law of the Excluded Middle Either A or not-A — there is no neutral third.

Either Bulika is “worth delivering” or it is not; Lona cannot leave the question open and still ride away. But the false dilemma is hers, not God’s. The real disjunction is sharper: either worth is something we assign and may revoke, or it is conferred by the Maker and cannot be. Choose the first and the city is rubbish; choose the second and even bad giants were once little ones worth saving. There is no middle shelf to abstain upon.

Reading MacDonald honestly. MacDonald’s instinct here is gospel-true: no people is beyond the reach of mercy, the leopardess is good after all, and the King rides into the wicked city to seek its children. We say a hearty amen. But the same warm hope runs, in the larger book, toward universal final restoration — the wish that the House of Death is a sleep from which all, even Lilith, finally wake redeemed. There Pleasant Springs must part company. Scripture holds out salvation to the worst sinner — “while we were still sinners, Christ died for us” — but it also teaches a real and final judgment (Matthew 25:31–46; Revelation 20:11–15) and saving repentance that must be made in this life, while the city gate still stands open. To say no soul is automatically beyond rescue is true; to say every soul will certainly be rescued is not. We hold both the boundless offer of grace and the eternal security of the redeemed who actually receive it (the ROSES / Molinist position of our Statement of Beliefs). Bulika’s gates are open this morning — but they are gates, and one may yet refuse to come in.
For Reflection
1.Lona says, “This people is not worth delivering.” Who have you quietly written off as beyond help — and what would change if you remembered Christ died for the ungodly while they were still ungodly?
2.The leopardess looked like terror itself and turned out to be a rescuer. Where has a frightening thing in your life proven to be mercy in disguise?
3.Vane confesses he commands obedience he has not himself learned. Where are you trying to lead others into a surrender you are still withholding?
4.The children walked through fear “for they had confidence in Lona.” Whose trusted presence makes you brave — and are you that presence for anyone walking through their own Bulika?
Father, You did not wait for us to become worth saving; while we were still sinners, while we were still the ungodly of Bulika, Your Son died for us. Forgive the weariness that writes a whole people off, and give us Your own heart that takes no pleasure in the death of the wicked but longs that they turn and live. Teach me to obey before I presume to lead, to trust You enough to walk through fear, and to see in what terrifies me the mercy You may have sent to rescue me. You do not change; let my hope rest there. Amen.
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