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IV. Somewhere or Nowhere?

Place, dimension, and the region of seven dimensions

Mr. Vane turns his milky star-sapphire to catch the light and is startled by a keen black eye gazing back out of the stone — and the sky darkens, thunder cracks, and Mr. Raven comes walking through the deluge with “solemn gait, and utter disregard of the falling deluge.” The librarian is now a sexton; he plunges his beak into the sod, draws out a wriggling worm, and tosses it into the air where it unfolds great red-and-black wings and soars. Vane swears he will not leave the house, yet step by step he is led out into a pine-forest, into “the region of the seven dimensions,” where a tree thirty yards off also stands rooted on his own kitchen hearth and a girl plays a piano strung with wild hyacinths he cannot hear. He demands to go home; Raven answers that the way back runs only one direction. “To go back, you must go through yourself, and that way no man can show another” — and Vane discovers he is “but beginning to become an individual.”

The Point of Reference

Mr. Raven taunts the narrator with a dizzying relativity: a tree is “somewhere” and also up the kitchen chimney; two objects share one place; the worm is at once buried and winged. If everything were so fluid, no thought could find its footing. That is exactly why this series fixes its reference point before it argues a single step. The laws of reason are not free-floating — they rest on One who stays Himself while every dimension shifts around Him. We anchor on the Logos of John 1, the unchanging “I AM” of Exodus 3:14. When even place dissolves into seven dimensions, the question “somewhere or nowhere?” is only answerable because there is a Someone who is the ground of all where and all when.

Exodus 3:14 · LXX Greek

καὶ εἶπεν ὁ θεὸς πρὸς Μωυσῆν Ἐγώ εἰμι ὁ ὤν· καὶ εἶπεν Οὕτως ἐρεῖς τοῖς υἱοῖς Ἰσραήλ Ὁ ὢν ἀπέσταλκέν με πρὸς ὑμᾶς.

Exodus 3:14 · ESV

God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And he said, “Say this to the people of Israel: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”

Author & Audience · Exodus

By long tradition Moses, recording the encounter at the burning bush on Horeb. The first hearers were Israel in bondage in Egypt (c. 13th century BC by the early dating), a people who needed to know the name of the God who would deliver them. The name is sheer self-existent being — the One who does not depend on a where or a when, but gives both their reality. He is the fixed point Vane has lost.

The Scripture: Through Yourself, Through the Door

Raven will not, indeed cannot, show Vane the road home, “for to go back, you must go through yourself.” The whole book has just announced its gospel under cover of a sexton's riddle: the worm must be buried before it can fly, and the man must pass through a death of self before he can wake an individual. Two passages catch the chapter exactly — one names the only Door, the other names the buried seed.

John 10:9 · Greek

ἐγώ εἰμι ἡ θύρα· δι’ ἐμοῦ ἐάν τις εἰσέλθῃ σωθήσεται καὶ εἰσελεύσεται καὶ ἐξελεύσεται καὶ νομὴν εὑρήσει.

John 10:9 · ESV

I am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture.

Author & Audience · John

The apostle John, writing late in the first century (by tradition from Ephesus) to a mixed Jewish-and-Gentile church. Jesus speaks these words to a crowd in Jerusalem after healing a man born blind. Where Raven says no man can show another the way in and out, Jesus says He is the way in and out — the one Door who alone makes “going in and out at pleasure” possible. Vane was told there is no such freedom “until you were at home”; the gospel names the threshold of that home.

John 12:24 · Greek

ἀμὴν ἀμὴν λέγω ὑμῖν, ἐὰν μὴ ὁ κόκκος τοῦ σίτου πεσὼν εἰς τὴν γῆν ἀποθάνῃ, αὐτὸς μόνος μένει· ἐὰν δὲ ἀποθάνῃ, πολὺν καρπὸν φέρει.

John 12:24 · ESV

Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.

Author & Audience · John

Again John; here Jesus speaks in the final days before His crucifixion, to disciples and curious Greeks who had come asking to see Him. The image is the sexton's own: a seed plunged into the ground to die, then raised to a larger life. Raven the gravedigger is preaching it sideways — the worm goes into the earth and comes out winged — but Christ speaks it of Himself first, and only then of all who follow Him through the grave.

ἀποθνῄσκω apothnēskō — to die, to die off, to die away

The word in John 12:24 is not a gentle “passing” but a real dying. MacDonald's whole vision turns on it: the sexton buries so that the buried may rise, and his constant counsel is to go and sleep the death of self in the House of Death. Scripture agrees that a real death precedes real life — “you must go through yourself” — yet insists the death that saves is one we die now, by faith, in union with the One who died first (Romans 6:4). The buried grain is no metaphor for postponement; it is the cross taken up today.

Four Lenses on “Somewhere or Nowhere?”
Scientific

The region of the seven dimensions

Raven announces that Vane is “in the region of the seven dimensions,” jokes about “the steppes of Uranus” and its burrowing beasts, and flatly denies that “two objects cannot exist in the same place at the same time” — “one of the greatest mistakes ever wiseacre made!” A century later this is less absurd than it sounds. Physics now speaks routinely of higher-dimensional spaces, of fields that overlap and superpose, of quantum states that are genuinely “in two places” until observed.

MacDonald's point is not a physics lecture but a rebuke to a flattened imagination. The man “of the world” mistook the local rules of his three dimensions for the whole law of being. Good science, like the thrush cracking the snail's shell at the chapter's start, keeps cracking open shells we thought were the floor of reality — and finds rooms behind them.

Philosophical

Free agency: as free as you choose to make yourself

Vane protests, “Am I, or am I not, a free agent?” Raven's reply is one of the book's deepest lines: “A man is as free as he chooses to make himself, never an atom freer… When you have a will, you will find that no one can” force him. Freedom, MacDonald insists, is not the bare ability to do as one pleases; it is the won possession of a real will, a self that has actually become someone.

This is why Raven tells him he is “but beginning to become an individual.” The narrator imagines his autonomy is a starting fact to be defended; in truth it is an end to be achieved, by going “through yourself.” The man who refuses what is true does not stay neutral — he “makes himself” an idiot, and “sorely punishes himself” by believing what is false.

Metaphysical

Home, and the house that opens only into OUT

The chapter's ache is homelessness. Vane cannot call the house HOME any longer, “where every door, every window opened into OUT, and even the garden I could not keep inside.” He has not yet left his house, Raven says, nor has it left him — “at the same time it cannot contain you, or you inhabit it.” He is a man without a place because he is a man who is not yet truly anyone.

Metaphysically this reverses the modern instinct. We think the self is the one solid thing and place is negotiable; MacDonald shows that place waits on being. You can only be “somewhere” if you are “someone.” The unhoused soul is restless in the strict sense Augustine meant: it has no rest because it has not yet come home to the One in whom alone it can be at home.

Scriptural

The buried worm and the winged life

The sexton's parable — beak in the sod, out comes a worm, up it flies on red-and-black wings — is the gospel of John 12:24 told in feathers and dirt. Vane objects, pedantically correct, that “worms are not the larvæ of butterflies.” Raven brushes it aside: “it will do for once.” The picture is allowed to be loose because the truth it serves is exact — what is sown perishes; what is raised flies.

“No creature should be allowed to forget what and where it came from,” Vane lectures, and stumbles onto something true: a thing that forgets its origin “will grow proud.” Raven turns it upward — the worm does not return to the earth but rises “higher and grows larger.” Both are right, and Scripture holds them together: remember the dust you are (Genesis 3:19), and yet be raised to glory you could never claim (1 Corinthians 15:43).

The Laws of Classical Logic
First, the point of reference. Raven's seven dimensions tempt us to think the laws of logic bend with the worlds. They do not. They hold in every dimension because they rest not on three-dimensional habit but on the unchanging Logos (John 1:1), the “I AM” of Exodus 3:14. Fix that reference and even the region of seven dimensions is lawful ground; lose it and you are not free, only lost.
1 · The Law of Identity A is A — a thing is what it is.

“You are but beginning to become an individual.” The chapter's drama is the slow firming-up of an A that can finally be itself. A self that has no settled will is not yet a fixed identity to defend — which is why Vane's loud appeal to “the very essence of my individuality” rings hollow even to himself. To be free, A must first truly be A.

2 · The Law of Non-Contradiction Not both A and not-A, in the same respect, at the same time.

Vane insists “two objects cannot exist in the same place at the same time,” and Raven shows the maxim was sloppy — the tree is “here” and on the kitchen hearth in different respects, different dimensions. Non-contradiction is never broken (a thing is not both A and not-A in the same respect); it is the narrator's cramped notion of “same place” that breaks. The law stands; his metaphysics was too small.

3 · The Law of the Excluded Middle Either A or not-A — there is no third country.

“Somewhere or nowhere?” The chapter's title forces the question and forbids a hiding place between. Vane cannot remain a tourist who “knows two worlds” from a safe height; either he goes “through himself” toward home or he does not. The seed either falls into the earth and dies, or it “remains alone” (John 12:24). There is no middle shelf between the buried grain and the lonely one.

Reading MacDonald honestly. This chapter sets up the engine of MacDonald's universalism — the conviction that every soul must finally go “through itself” and be brought home, so that no door stays shut forever. The sexton who buries everyone in hope of a universal waking is a lovely picture, and we receive its truth gratefully: there is a death-to-self that opens into life, and Christ is the Door (John 10:9). But where MacDonald lets the hope slide into a guarantee that all are eventually saved, Pleasant Springs holds the line with Scripture: the death that saves is one we die in this life, by faith, not a sleep all wake from saved at last; judgment is real and final (Matthew 25:31–46; Revelation 20:11–15); and the redeemed are eternally secure (the ROSES / Molinist position of our Statement of Beliefs). Raven is right that no man can walk the road home for another — but he is not the Door, and the door does not stay open forever.
For Reflection
1.Vane swears he will not leave the house, yet is led out step by small step — “I give in so far.” Where has a series of small concessions carried you somewhere your stated will refused to go?
2.“A man is as free as he chooses to make himself, never an atom freer.” Do you treat your freedom as a starting fact to defend, or as a self still to be won? What would “going through yourself” cost you this week?
3.The house now “opens only into OUT.” What have you called “home” that can no longer contain you — and where is the only home that finally can?
4.The buried grain bears fruit; the unburied “remains alone” (John 12:24). What in you is being asked to fall into the earth and die now, rather than wait for some painless future waking?
Lord, You are the great I AM, the same in every world and dimension, the Door through whom alone I go in and out and find pasture. I have built houses that open only into OUT, and called my restlessness freedom. Teach me the death that is life: let the grain of my self-will fall into Your ground and die, that it may not remain alone. Make me, by Your grace, a true individual — someone at last — and bring me all the way home through Yourself, who went through death ahead of me. Amen.
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