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XLV. The Journey Home

The road to the City and the country of the living

The long dying is over, and the waking has begun. Vane and Lona walk in a spring twilight where nothing casts a shadow and every heather-bush glows with its own light, “as fire from the bush Moses saw in the desert.” The microcosm and macrocosm are “at length atoned, at length in harmony”: to know a thing is now to know its life and his own at once, “because Another is what he is.” They pass the once-fearful hollow, now a pellucid lake with the whole horrid brood of monsters lying motionless at its bottom — not dead, but stilled. The auroral wind trumpets the sun, “a coal from the altar of the Father’s never-ending sacrifice,” and every flower stretches out its neck, expectant of something greater than the light, “coming, is coming.” The dry channels run again with living water that shouts in its gladness; the desert blossoms as the rose. This is resurrection-morning, and the road runs one direction only — home to the Father.

The Point of Reference

Vane says the strange new thing himself, almost as a creed: to know anything at all is “to know that we are all what we are, because Another is what he is.” That is not poetry only; it is the whole foundation of this series stated in MacDonald’s own words. Every created thing has identity on loan — the heather is heather, the river is river — because there is One who does not borrow His being from anything, who simply is. When God names Himself to Moses out of the burning bush, He gives no description, only sheer existence: “I AM WHO I AM.” All logic, all identity, all the joyful interchange of light Vane now sees, rests on that unborrowed, unchanging Self. We fix our reference there.

Exodus 3:14 · Greek (LXX)

καὶ εἶπεν ὁ θεὸς πρὸς Μωυσῆν Ἐγώ εἰμι ὁ ὤν· καὶ εἶπεν Οὕτως ἐρεῖς τοῖς υἱοῖς Ισραηλ Ὁ ὢν ἀπέσταλκέν με πρὸς ὑμᾶς.

Exodus 3:14 · ESV

God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And he said, “Say this to the people of Israel: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”

Author & Audience · Exodus

By ancient and New-Testament tradition Moses is the author, recording his own call at the burning bush. The first audience was Israel in (and just out of) Egyptian bondage — a people who needed to know the Name of the God who was about to lead them home through the wilderness. Vane’s glowing heather “as fire from the bush Moses saw” is no accident: MacDonald is sending us back to this very chapter, where created fire burns with uncreated Presence and is not consumed.

The Scripture: The Desert Shall Blossom

The chapter’s landscape is lifted almost word for word from the prophets. “The desert rejoiced and blossomed as the rose” is Isaiah; the dry channels that “ran and flashed and foamed with living water” are the river of the new creation. MacDonald is not inventing his resurrection-morning; he is illustrating Scripture’s.

Isaiah 35:1–2 · Greek (LXX)

1Εὐφράνθητι ἔρημος διψῶσα, ἀγαλλιάσθω ἔρημος καὶ ἀνθείτω ὡς κρίνον, 2καὶ ἐξανθήσει καὶ ἀγαλλιάσεται τὰ ἔρημα τοῦ Ιορδάνου· … καὶ ὁ λαός μου ὄψεται τὴν δόξαν κυρίου καὶ τὸ ὕψος τοῦ θεοῦ.

Isaiah 35:1–2 · ESV

1The wilderness and the dry land shall be glad; the desert shall rejoice and blossom like the crocus; 2it shall blossom abundantly and rejoice with joy and singing… They shall see the glory of the LORD, the majesty of our God.

Author & Audience · Isaiah

The prophet Isaiah of Jerusalem (ministry c. 740–700 BC), addressing Judah under the shadow of Assyrian threat and looking past it to the day of God’s rescue. Chapter 35 is the highway home through a wilderness made to bloom — precisely the journey Vane and the Little Ones now walk, up the right bank of the living river, finding “no desert” where the desert had been.

Revelation 22:1 · Greek

Καὶ ἔδειξέν μοι ποταμὸν ὕδατος ζωῆς λαμπρὸν ὡς κρύσταλλον, ἐκπορευόμενον ἐκ τοῦ θρόνου τοῦ θεοῦ καὶ τοῦ ἀρνίου.

Revelation 22:1 · ESV

Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb.

Author & Audience · Revelation

John, exiled on Patmos (c. AD 95), writing to seven churches of Roman Asia under pressure to compromise. His closing vision is a crystal river from the throne — the very water Vane sees, where for the first time the Little Ones behold “the glory of God in the limpid flow of water” and plunge in. MacDonald draws his last river straight from John’s last chapter.

ἀποκατάστασις apokatastasis — restoration, setting-right, the renewal of all things

Peter promises “the time of restoring (ἀποκατάστασις) all things” (Acts 3:21). It is the right word for this chapter: dry channels filled, deserts forested, the cosmos breathing “heavenward her sweet-savoured smoke.” But Scripture restores the creation and gathers the redeemed; it never promises that the monsters at the bottom of the lake will themselves wake renewed. The restoration of all things is not the salvation of all persons — a distinction MacDonald’s hope is prone to blur.

Author & Audience · Acts

Luke, the physician and travelling companion of Paul, writing his second volume (c. AD 62–80) to Theophilus and the wider Greek-speaking church. Acts 3:21 records Peter preaching to a crowd of fellow Jews at the Temple after the healing at the Beautiful Gate — promising the “restoring of all things” at Christ’s return, the very cosmic renewal Vane now walks through.

Four Lenses on “The Journey Home”
Scientific

Light that goes out from things — and a sun that is a coal from the altar

Vane describes a world where every blade is “perfectly visible—either by light that went out from it… or by light that went out of our eyes,” and “nothing cast a shadow; all things interchanged a little light.” It is a vision of a creation no longer merely reflecting borrowed photons but luminous in itself — matter glorified rather than abolished. The physics is not denied; it is fulfilled.

And the sun is named exactly: “a coal from the altar of the Father’s never-ending sacrifice to his children.” Our star really is a furnace pouring out life by self-spending fusion — a true picture of a giving God. MacDonald lets the real science stand as parable: the cosmos is built on costly self-gift, light at the price of burning.

Philosophical

The microcosm and macrocosm “at length atoned”

The whole chapter is a resolution of the ancient problem of the knower and the known. “The world and my being, its life and mine, were one… I lived in everything; everything entered and lived in me.” The gap between self and world that haunts all philosophy is here healed — not by collapsing the two into a blur, but by both meeting in a third.

Note the word Vane chooses: atoned. Reconciliation is not self-generated; it is given. To know a thing is “to know that we are all what we are, because Another is what he is.” That is the answer to skepticism the modern self cannot supply for itself: the unity of knower and known is grounded outside both, in the One who upholds each.

Metaphysical

The monsters not dead, but stilled

The most sober line in a joyful chapter: the hideous brood lies motionless at the lake’s bottom, “but they were not dead. So long as exist men and women of unwholesome mind, that lake will still be peopled with loathsomenesses.” Evil here is not yet annihilated; it is bound, subdued, held below the crystal water. Even on resurrection-morning a real shadow-realm persists.

This is metaphysically honest. The new creation does not pretend evil never was; it overcomes it and contains it. MacDonald will not let us imagine a heaven achieved by forgetting hell. The journey home runs past the lake of monsters, in full view of them — not around it.

Scriptural

“Coming, is coming” — the creation on tiptoe

Every flower “straighten[s] its stalk, lift[s] up its neck… expectant: something more than the sun… is coming, is coming.” This is Paul’s ἀποκαραδοκία — the creation craning its neck in eager longing (Romans 8:19), waiting to be set free from bondage to decay.

And the longing is not vague optimism but a Person: “He is coming, is coming, and the necks of all humanity are stretched out to see him come.” The chapter ends the synopsis it began — “on our way home to the Father” — with the New Testament’s last prayer still implied: Come, Lord Jesus.

Author & Audience · Romans

Paul, writing c. AD 57 from Corinth to the church at Rome — a mixed Jewish-and-Gentile congregation he had not yet visited. In Romans 8:19 he pictures the whole creation in “eager longing” (ἀποκαραδοκία), groaning for liberation from decay — the same out-stretched, neck-craning expectancy MacDonald gives every flower at the dawn.

Author & Audience · Matthew

Matthew (the apostle and former tax collector), writing c. AD 60–80 to a largely Jewish-Christian audience. In Matthew 25:31–46 Jesus Himself describes the Son of Man separating sheep from goats at His coming — the real and final judgment that anchors our reading of this chapter’s universal-sounding dawn.

The Laws of Classical Logic
First, the point of reference. Vane has already named it: “we are all what we are, because Another is what he is.” The three laws hold because being holds, and being holds because the great I AM of Exodus 3:14 — the Logos in whom all things consist — does not change. Fix the reference on that unborrowed Self, and the laws below are not rules laid over the new creation but the very grain of it.
1 · The Law of Identity A is A — a thing is what it is.

In the glorified world every growing thing shows Vane “its indwelling idea—the informing thought… which was its being.” This is identity perfected: each creature is at last fully what it is, transparent to its own true self. Glory does not dissolve identity into a haze; it makes the heather more heather, the river more river — A more purely A than the dim old world ever allowed.

2 · The Law of Non-Contradiction Not both A and not-A, in the same respect, at the same time.

Vane distinguishes two states that cannot both be the same: “life mere and pure is in itself bliss; that where being is not bliss, it is not life, but life-in-death.” The waking life and the burrowing loathsomenesses are not two flavors of one thing; they are A and not-A. The lake of monsters proves it — that which refuses life cannot also be called alive.

3 · The Law of the Excluded Middle Either A or not-A — there is no third road.

The chapter closes on a real question that admits no neutral answer: “When he comes, will he indeed find them watching thus?” Either the necks are stretched out for him or they are not; either one is on the road home to the Father or one is still in the lake. MacDonald presses the watching/not-watching choice and refuses to let the reader hover between.

Reading MacDonald honestly. This is the chapter where MacDonald’s universalist hope shines brightest and presses hardest. The river of life runs to everyone; the desert blooms entire; the monsters are “not dead,” only stilled, as if waiting their turn to wake. The drift is unmistakable: a cosmos in which all sleep finally ends in one homeward dawn, with no door permanently shut. We receive the beauty with gratitude and hold the line clearly. Scripture teaches a real and final judgment — sheep and goats parted forever (Matthew 25:31–46), the dead judged by what is written, and a second death that is not a longer sleep (Revelation 20:11–15). The “restoration of all things” restores the creation and gathers the redeemed; it does not promise the salvation of every soul, and the monsters at the lake’s bottom are warning, not delayed guests. Saving repentance is offered in this life, and for those who are Christ’s the homeward road is utterly secure — the eternal security of the redeemed (the ROSES / Molinist position of our Statement of Beliefs). We love MacDonald’s morning; we will not erase its noon-day judgment to keep it.
For Reflection
1.Vane only reaches resurrection-morning after the long sleep of dying to self. What in you is still refusing to “go to sleep” — still clenched against the death that leads to this kind of waking?
2.The monsters are “not dead” while “men and women of unwholesome mind” remain. Where does an unwholesome thought still keep something alive at the bottom of your own lake?
3.Every flower stretches its neck, “expectant… something… is coming.” Is your own life leaning forward toward Christ’s coming, or has waiting cooled into forgetting?
4.MacDonald hopes the river reaches everyone. Why does Scripture’s real judgment make the offer of grace now more urgent, not less — and how should that change today?
Father, You make the desert blossom and the dry channels run with living water, and every flower lifts its neck because You are coming. Teach me to die the death that leads to this waking, and to stop feeding the loathsome things that lie stilled but not yet slain in me. Keep me watching, with my neck stretched out toward the dawn, so that when Your Son comes He finds me on the road home. You are the I AM, the unborrowed Life in whom all things hold together; be the fixed point of all my hope. Amen.
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